The many million things I want to blog about....

So in the middle of the night, when all the world is asleep, I feel a sudden urge to write.
About love and broken hearts, about nights at Zouk, about true friends, our Singapore education system and why we need to do a major overhaul and how much i hate money.

I also want to write about Mambo Jambo & how our entertainment industry has evolved over the 7 years that I stepped foot into it. The close links with social behavior, how women are viewed and where music is today, just in my own personal opinion.

And why I am so attached to my car or why I should be. So it's all swimming in my head, all these million ga-zillion thoughts. And hundreds of pictures to share.

I will make the time to do so. Promise to self. x

Fear to love

I have so much love to give as a person. An ex boyfriend once said to me, maybe you fall in love too easily. And we talked about fearing to love. I don't think I ever grasped the concept of that fear. Until today.

For all the hurt & all the tears I've cried, I am overwhelmed by the sadness I feel today that I will never love the same way again. I've warned myself never to let the pain from the past mould the love in the future. But I guess the world is screwed up & people fuck up.

I hate myself for being afraid to love. It can't be happening because then I'll just be like one of the millions out there who become jaded & who can't see the hope in a perfect love.

Love is something so pure & being able to love another is a true blessing. What I have given in love, I have never regretted & the purity of the way I love, I will take full credit for. But the fear is inevitable. Maybe the heart can no longer take the blows ever again so it's on full alert.

I'm scared to fall in love and I'm sad that I am.

When life throws you honey waffles & you're way too cool for school

I suspect I'm going through some weird kind of time at the moment. I seem to have a sudden obsession with expressing how I feel using food, particularly dessert. And while I'm writing this, I'm thinking of pancakes for breakfast tomorrow.

Pancakes for me fall in the same category as rainbows and waterfalls and fireworks and hello kitty and tattoos. The category being: What makes Sofie happy.

Anyways, the weekends flew by rapidly, as usual. A few highlights like the Electric Odyssey pit stop at Zouk. It's a world tour that this pair of friends from France- Xavier and Antonin are currently on, and in Singapore they chose Zouk as one of the stops to charge the car. It takes 6 hours for the car to be fully charged and it can then go on for about 120KM. I test drove the car around the Zouk carpark on an operation night!! It's a right hand drive and super smooth, it was mega fun!! But the picture of me wasn't nice so I'm putting the one of Benny and Xavier up!

Xavier & Benny in the Citroen Electric car

Will do a separate post on this when i get more pictures from their absolutely lovely photographer Eric Suard who sent me many kisses on FB today, the tour is now in Lao!

After i got back from Australia a few weeks back, or maybe it's an age thing, but I have developed the patience to speak to strangers, and i mean genuinely. Because to me, I need to be inspired and I continue to seek that inspiration even more so now than before from people that I meet. It's seeking appreciation in the tiniest things in life.

And the party goes on even if life gives you crap doesn't it?
I love this period when all the kids come back for the Summer holidays. It takes the entire entertainment landscape to a different level and there's a strange sort of buzz in the air. As part of the usual Zouk Soundsystem we always have, we had decided to give it some live and so the School's out Special came into play.

Let the pictures do the talking...

Year 2012: Kalyn, Hong & me in the Zouk office

Adele, Hannah, Hannah & Kalyn

My favourite shot from the night! Hong & djB

My school bag- i had to borrow it from a friend, it was suppose to be an Eastpak but we figured GUESS was old school enough.

Zouk Marketing & Entertainment team! Hannah, Nat, Kristina, QH & me

Hannah's friends from SAS, Kalyn & me

In the DJ console: Kalyn & Germaine

Kalyn & Hong

Kalyn & me

Loving this pose of djB's!!

I even went to get converse shoes just for the night. Our photo op was mad cute!

When i was scouting for the uniform and deciding if i wanted to do the whole Japanese school girl look or do the Singapore style "lian" look, i had to go with what was close to my heart.

Going around Far East Plaza (FEP) and trying to put the outfit together, I was with Ju-Anne who kept repeating how I'm a true blue lian and no one could be bothered the way i was bothered to get the uniform right. We ended up trying to look for 77th Street, which isn't even in FEP anymore!

I thought back on the days when it was all about Taka Square Swensons, AC boys, SJI boys, SC girls, MG girls, Far East kids and Potblack. When all that mattered was who's girlfriend you were and which MG girl was pregnant or which SC girl was in love with which AC boy.

I remembered fondly on how the complications then were so simplistic today.
We chatted on IRC and Alamak chats and were on time for all our appointments because all we had were pagers.

We said I love you through Alpha numeric messages.

Today we say i no longer love you through whatsapp.

It has evolved yet has remained the same. We move through time and digital space but essentially we are all lost souls.

xx